nightcrossed: (fangirl!Resist)
Tear Grants ([personal profile] nightcrossed) wrote2009-07-30 11:08 pm

[Hymn #33] ~Misterioso~

[Private; hackable to friends (if you've interacted with her at least 3-5 times I'd say)]

Mystearica Aura Fende. That's what Misa-Misa said my name was, at least. It seems like it could be correct, judging it against my brother's name. But it makes me wonder if there's a reason besides convenience's sake that I remembered myself simply as "Tear".
I suppose shorter's just easier...

I can't say that I thoroughly understand her abilities, but they do seem useful enough, especially if you worked alongside healers or medics. The more I think about it, though, there really does seem to be a pattern. A lot of the people I've met seem to either have unique abilities, were important where they came from, or both. Perhaps there's a purpose for gathering people with a wide variety of specialties? Well, it's not like anyone can give me an answer. Moving on...

Speaking of people I've met, a lot of those I was introduced to when I first got here have since disappeared. Some people seem worried about that, as if this place is dying, or rather, that it'll "never be born". I don't think this place is dying so much as changing, but I dislike that aspect of it all the same. Disappearing. What happens to a person who disappears... do they appear elsewhere at the same rate and merely get transferred to another place, or is there actually a moment when they no longer exist?

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Right.
Other than all that, I'm seriously thinking that this might be an ideal time for me to find a pet. ...I'm really sorry about earlier...!

Does anyone have any suggestions? I don't think I'm allergic to any animals, but it can't be one that would knock over or try to ingest plants now that I've finally succeeded in getting them to bloom properly.

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-07-31 10:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, come now, Raven. I can only guess at what you're thinking, but...

You seemed like the ideal person to ask. You're always behaving like you don't have a care in the world... appearing in random places, being sarcastic... Although, granted, sometimes it seems an awful lot like you're trying to flirt with people.

Who else am I supposed to go to for help with this?

1/2

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-07-31 11:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Tear darlin', ya got a lot ta learn about a sense of humor if ya think ya can get one by studyin'. Kinda counterproductive ta the whole humor part.

2/2

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-07-31 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Anyway, I don't think ya can really go ta anyone and ask how ta be laidback. But if ya wanna behave like there's nothing ta worry about, it helps when ya don't have anything ta worry about. Ya can't just learn that sort of thing, ya have ta just do it.

Come ta think, I'm not sure I've ever even heard ya laugh before.

Re: 2/2

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 12:17 am (UTC)(link)
...I... Yes, that would be a problem. It was worth a try.

Not having anything at all to worry about...
That's impossible, isn't it?

Even if there's nothing I can do in a given situation, I'm still forced to assess it. I can't simply not think about it.

You probably haven't...

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
Is it really impossible, or do you just not want to try?

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 12:24 am (UTC)(link)
For me, I'm not sure it's possible.

I have too much on my mind. I can't simply ignore it and pretend it never happened. And then there's that guy...

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
Well, if it's so hard ta calm down and relax, how do ya expect ta get a sense of humor?

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
I don't really expect to get one, but if I don't develop a sense of humor in a fair amount of time, that guy will end up driving me crazy...

If not a sense of humor, I need some kind of fontech tracking device so I can prepare myself before he shows up unexpectedly and starts saying stupid things with that silly smile on his face.

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 04:27 am (UTC)(link)
Now would ol' Raven happen ta be this guy?

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
Way ta ruin the moment, darlin'.

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry to disappoint you.

Actually, I was referring to Luke, although both of you do have some similarities, I suppose.

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 07:02 pm (UTC)(link)
What are you dreaming of exactly...?

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 07:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I dunno. Guess I didn't do so well on the dreamin' part after all.

[Confused Tear is confused.]

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 07:48 pm (UTC)(link)
...eh?

I don't think I follow.

You just said...
You can't have forgotten already.

Raven doing what he does best.

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 07:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Nah, it's alright. They're just dreams. Ya can't spend too much time on 'em or ya lose focus of what's in front of ya.

Re: Raven doing what he does best.

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 08:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[Firmly. Not that you can really tell assuming this is written.]

I disagree.

[[OOC: Good job, Tear, go and contradict everything you've been saying up until now.]]

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 08:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Interestin', comin' from you.

[tl;dr post that may well be a failed argument on my part XD]

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 08:37 pm (UTC)(link)
...

...Well.

Isn't it a person's dreams that allow him to face the future to begin with? If you lose sight of what it is you want to accomplish or what you want to have, there's nothing left to keep your resolve from crumbling. You'll have nothing to fight for, and you won't be focusing on anything at all. A soldier faces forward because he dreams of peace, a king faces forward because he dreams of prosperity for himself and his subjects, and of protecting his kingdom...

I think everyone has at least one thing that they truly want.
It's an important part of being human, and I don't think it should be denied or taken lightly.

...Of course, it'd still be stupid of someone to waste all of his time daydreaming.

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 09:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Some people face the future not 'cause of dreams, but because there's nothin' to do but keep on livin'.

Dreams might keep resolve from crumbling, but some people fight because the alternative is worse. Fear's a strong enough motivator as well; hopes and dreams can only take you so far.

Want, sure. Dreams, I don't know. Sometimes, there's just nothing to do but keep on living.

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
I know something of fear, and I agree that dreams will only go so far... the rest being left up to whether a person decides to act, that person's own strength, and numerous other factors, however...

...pardon me for prying, but it sounds like you've got some heavy issues weighing on your mind.

The people who say things like 'there's nothing to do but keep on living' are those welcoming death.

Are you not happy to be alive right now, Raven?

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Now why do ya think I had ta be talkin' about myself? Ain't I allowed ta have some good ol' fashioned age-old wisdom now and then?

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 11:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I just didn't expect to hear words like that coming from you, that's all.

[identity profile] deusexblastia.livejournal.com 2009-08-01 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Whaaat? Ya don't like my eloquent, poetic comments?