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Tear Grants ([personal profile] nightcrossed) wrote2009-05-09 10:08 pm

[Hymn #21]

Well, that wasn't so bad. I could have done without sweeping, but learning the proper way to prepare tea was interesting enough. I never knew it was such a complicated process or that I had been doing it completely wrong all this time. It's a little embarrassing... I guess I'm not very graceful...

[Tear conveniently leaves out the part about her shoulders, arms, and fingers being stiff from working all day. You might not want to touch her. (You probably shouldn't either way.)]

I've been thinking on things again. It seems like some of the residents are trying to make a new life on this island and others are clinging to the past they can't remember...

What do I want to do? There doesn't seem to be a right or best decision.

Do I want to search for yesterday's me?
Or do I want to simply start over?
Or do I want to incorporate aspects of both of those people?

The problem is not knowing who I was or what I did. There's the possibility that I won't even approve of her (ie. the person I was) after meeting new people and experiencing different things here. At the same time, however, I don't think I can abandon her. Not only is she directly related to the person I am now (...I mean, she must be, logically speaking...), but there's also the fact that I will inevitably remember who she was and what was important to her. As for both? I don't know. I have no desire to contradict myself and I feel that's entirely possible. Then again, I've probably said hypocritical things already.

I have to wonder if people are waiting for me back home. I keep dreaming about Van. What would my brother be doing if he was in my situation, and has he even noticed my disappearance? (Do we even disappear?)

There's not much point in worrying about it, but it's difficult to ignore questions like this.

Anyway.

Mokona suggested that I try a fruit dish next. I was leaning towards pineapples or strawberries since I experimented with apples last time. Does anyone remember any of their favorite dishes from home?

Also, it seems like a family of birds have made a nest in one of the hanging baskets outside the cafe. They're really lively and seem to be singing all the time. I think the eggs will probably hatch soon. (I'm no expert, but...) Please be mindful of them if you visit the cafe, since I don't want them to abandon their eggs. I bet the chicks will be really fluffy and adorable. <3

[identity profile] angel-crow.livejournal.com 2009-05-10 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Identity crisis? How come?

You should make more stuff using apples! The last one was really good!

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-05-10 10:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I guess I'm just overthinking. When I'm not busy with work, I seem to get lost in my thoughts. It's difficult not to dwell on having amnesia. I guess I haven't quite adjusted to this place yet. I still feel a bit on edge.

You really like apples, Cooro. I'll keep that in mind. Maybe I'll try something cold next time, since it'll start getting warmer soon.

[identity profile] angel-crow.livejournal.com 2009-05-10 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
But even if we don't remember things, we're still us, right? I still like apples even though I don't remember much, and Husky still acts like Husky even though he doesn't remember anything at all.

That sounds great!

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-05-10 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, I guess so... I still like cute things, and I'm still afraid of ghosts... There are probably other things, too, that I just haven't realized yet. I guess I really am worrying needlessly about this.

Really? That's good.
I'll let you try it first since you like apples so much.

[For the record, Tear's favorite foods are apparently apples and milk.]

[identity profile] angel-crow.livejournal.com 2009-05-10 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
I can't wait to try it!

[identity profile] a-severed-fate.livejournal.com 2009-05-10 11:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad.